What? Bob Saget!

For the record, 2021 was by far the worst in my life long biography. What happened? Doesn't matter. When I sit, close my mind and imagine. Forcing all of the creative juices out from me, I sit, open my eyes to a blank sheet of paper. I can't think, everything is either empty or black, as if there was nothing there. I have had this for too long and I hate it, but I don't know how to change the living sponge in my head. Before my last accident in 2004, I felt so alive, creative, goofy......and down right untouchable. Maybe I did die as my oxygen level was down to 16 (normal level is about 97). Maybe that part of me did die, I dunno. I often wonder if there is another form of life after this? I watch amazing shows like The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel and the Righteous Gemstones and wonder what am I missing to be a tad bit funny, fuck even Pete Davidson dressed up as Count Chocula and made me laugh once. This past weekend Bob Saget died, I grew up with him. He was my dad on Friday and Sunday nights. He was enjoyable, corny, but it wasn't until he directed a small movie called Dirty Work, that I saw what Bob Saget could really do. Dirty work wasn't going to win Saget an Oscar, nor did any of the critics praise this movie at all, but I loved it. Starring the late great Norm MacDonald, Dirty Work is one comedy I enjoyed so much I saw it multiple times in the theater. Looking back, I re-watched it the other day, not only did it hold it on my end but I also noticed something........something that not a lot of people pick up on. It was stacked with talent, cameos that a typical comedy today would be hard to do. (Jack Warden Don Rickles Chevy Chase Chris Farley David Koechner Fred Wolf Kay Hawtrey Kevin Farley Gary Coleman Adam Sandler) Those are a few off the top of my head. Bob Saget at the time best known for being the first host of America's Funniest Videos and playing Danny Tanner, the dad from Full House. As well as being a stand up comedian, where he would become friends with everyone. Saget was just that nice, so of course (even if he thought the script was trash) Rickles would say yes, that's just how Saget was, nice. And to hear about his death and how it happen so quickly, so young, so many90's night in front of the TV with him, Norm, Betty, Madden....gone...It just feels like I have so much more to do before, but how? When? Where? With what? I don't even have time anymore for a family of my own. It takes time and so much money. I almost think that if there were no objects of time and no sales of money, would I still be trying to think......